Sugar and Spice...

Sugar and Spice and everything nice. That's what little girls are made of.
It's a girl! We are beyond thrilled. We are so happy we decided to find out what we were having. It was so much fun to see her on the screen again. This was a very long ultrasound. Almost an hour long. So we got to see her for a long time. She was on the move! She kept moving, rolling. She was really cute. Everything went well with our anatomy scan. The doctor says everything looks normal. We are so excited! I think Mike fell in love with another girl today!

Update on me

Sorry I haven't blogged in a few weeks....so here it was has been going on with me. I am now 18 weeks!

I had my latest OB appointment last week. I got weighed in (My least favorite part)...I gained 9 lbs in 4 weeks! OMG! I was totally panicked. I had no idea how this was happening. I told her I was following the eating guidelines I was given at my first appointment. So she had me go through my menu. I didn't get past breakfast, and she put the breaks on.

I have been drinking whole Milk (3- servings of dairy like I was told)....I started to drink whole milk when we started IF treatment and Acupuncture. Well I never stopped. I thought I was doing a good thing. Yeah I must have missed the fine print on the info packet I was given. LOW FAT!!!! Ugh what an idiot. So fast forward a week and a half. I have totally cut out whole milk and switched back to skim milk and cut out OJ all together. And what do you know...I actually lost 2 lbs! So I have found the culprit of my expanding backside. Damn Whole Milk! The goals is the maintain the weight I gained in the last 4 weeks and not gain anymore. 1.5 weeks down and still doing well.

In other news. We did our NT testing a while back in the first trimester. When we got our results we were 1 / 2020 for Downs. DH was totally satisfied with the results. There is a second blood test called the Triple Screen we were offered. Mike thought it was silly and since our chances were 99.95 that everything was fine, we didn't need to do it. I talked to the OB and she said there is no harm in doing it...just do it. So I go against my better judgement and have it done. A week later they call me. The genetic counselor says "I'm surprised the risk went up since your first set of numbers from the NT scan were so low. It's still a negative result, but now its 1 / 234". I almost died. It took me a full day to relax and stop being a basket case. So our chances of everything being fine are now 99.5 %. The chance of the baby having Downs are less that a half percent. Looking back, I wish I would have listened to Mike and just passed up on the Triple Screen.

12/26 is the BIG ultrasound! We have our appointment scheduled. We are praying the baby cooperates and will let us peek. More updates on that next week! Hopefully we will have some good ultrasound pictures to post!

13 weeks!

Nothing much to report. But being a total AW...13 weeks! I can't believe we made it here. There were days I was so afraid we wouldn't get here. But here we are, finally in the 2nd trimester. I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders and I can finally breathe a bit.

It's so weird...for the past 4 weeks I have felt horrible. So tired and morning sickness (all day). My cousin told me I would wake up one day and suddenly it would be gone. And you know what? She was TOTALLY right! I woke up 2 days ago and it was like the switch had suddenly been turned off. Hardly and dry heaving, headaches seemed to subside and a felt a bit of energy. It's amazing! I am trying to sit back relax and enjoy the next three month bc I know months 7-9 are going to be horrendous again.

So for now we are just relaxing and FINALLY starting to enjoy this pregnancy!

Genetic Results In!

We had our genetic testing for Downs Syndrome and Trisomy 18. Our numbers for Down's were 1/2020 and for Trisomy 18 they were 1/99,000. They doctor said there is a 99.95% chance that the baby is perfectly fine. We have decided to do the second set of blood work just for peace of mind and since insurance pays for it. Why not right?

This was not a fun visit. Although we got to see the baby again (we are really spoiled) Mike was completely out of control. I told him we were getting genetic testing done. I told him what it was for, but he must not have been listening. When we sat down and the genetic counselor began talking about what there were going to test for, Mike lost it. He didn't flip out...but I could totally tell he was terribly uncomfortable and could not wrap his head around the "worst case scenario". She was really good at calming him down and talking things through with him. I just didn't know how to react.

This whole time I have been the one who has worried, but now he was totally feeling out of control. Welcome to my world! He is obviously much better now that we got such good numbers. But I think this was his wake up call and now feels a bit of the worry I have been feeling for the past 3 months.

3D Alien Baby!

So we went for our first trimester screening at the hospital today. The doctor quickly figured out we are still measuring 3 days behind and we were just a few days early to do the testing. But the doctor was so awesome and let us peek around for about 30 minutes and we got some great shots. We still have a really strong HB at 162...Girl maybe? So we have to go back in another 10 days to do the actual genetic testing. But for today we got to hear the heartbeat for the first time. Music to our ears. It was so awesome. So I just wanted to share my favorite picture from today. "Our little Alien Baby"

We Graduated!

I had my last appointment with the RE today. We got to see the little bean again. I am measuring to date and we have a really strong heartbeat at 167! He says everything looks good, and I have been officially releaased.

I also went to see my OB today for my first pre-natal appoinment. Tons of bloodwork and lots of medical questions. No biggie. We go back in 4 weeks. This is the bitter sweet part. Being with the RE at only 9 weeks we already had 4 ultrasounds. But I am so thankful we got here and have been so blessed!

We have a heartbeat!

We had our ultrasound today at exactly 7 weeks. We got to see a beautiful little heartbeat on the screen. It was so amazing to see that little flicker on the screen. It was such a relief and such a weight off our shoulders. I had been so worried since I still feel really good. I have only been really tired. But, I haven't felt very sick. A few dry heaving episodes, but nothing else.

The heartbeat was 125 which I was told is normal. RE says I am measuring 3 days behind which is normal and expected since my HCG betas got off to a really slow start. We go back again in 2 weeks. If everything looks good, I graduate to my regular OB. I never thought I would be happy to see my OB!

Leaving the RE is actually going to be bitter sweet. I know we won't get the same individual attention that we get at our RE. Not to mention, we won't get so many ultrasounds at the OB. But we are so thankful that we have been blessed.

So everything is going well. Please keep us in your prayers.

Ultrasound #2

I had my second ultrasound today. We saw the sack, the yolk sack, and a tiny little embryo! She couldn't see the heartbeat. She says it starts beating around 6 weeks. I was exactly 6 weeks today. So she thought it could be a concern, or it couldn't. So I have ANOTHER beta done.

After about 4 hours of waiting for that darn call, the nurse called around 1:30. Beta came back at 6319. Progesterone was 41.3. She says the numbers look awesome. What a relief! So I go back in exactly 1 week. I will be exactly 7 weeks. Hopefully we will be able to see the heartbeat then. Lots of good vibes, prayers etc!

1st Ultrasound Fiasco

So today was our first ultrasound. I am 5 weeks 4 days. We were very excited. But, the RE said "Don't be alarmed, it's so early we may not see anything".

So we go in and the tech sets everything up...she says "By the wheel you are about 6 weeks. That may be off by 2 weeks. We should see a sack though. We might see the embryo and maybe a heartbeat". I already know 6 weeks is wrong since I know my exact ovulation date. But fine...proceed.

Again violated by the wand...she starts messing around. I usually know what the hell I am looking at but I was extremely confused. Then I saw what I "thought" was the sack. She looks around and says your left ovary is pretty big. It's filled with fluid and it looks like you have a cyst on it, but that is normal. She find the sack and says, "It's smaller than I would have expected at 6 weeks, but I think this is the yolk sack". After a few minutes of looking around, she says, "Ok I am satisfied with what I see at this point". She removes the wand and blood EVERYWHERE!

All I could think was, "Oh My God, it's happening again!". I said "OMG blood? That is NOT a good sign". She asks me if I have been bleeding at all. And I told her not since like 2 days before my last beta. This is a first, and it was tons.

Now the mood changes. She says get cleaned up. We are going to draw your blood and I want you to go to the imaging center. (Calling in the big dogs). She says "I want to get a better picture and see where the bleeding is coming from". Now my head is spinning, I look at DH who looks white and is seriously ready to vomit. I get cleaned up and they draw my blood. I am usually such a wimp with drawing blood. It always hurts. I felt NOTHING. I was numb. All I could think of was "I'm miscarrying, I can't believe this is happening" She gives me the paperwork to make the appointment for the imaging center, then we leave.

Fast forward about 45 minutes. I drop DH at the train station so he can go to work, and I go to work. I tell my boss I have a "follow-up" appointment again at 10:30.

So I go to the imaging center. They get me right in. I explain to the SUPER nice tech what is going on. I tell her I'm 5 weeks 4 days...not 6 weeks. I hadn't bled at all until the ultrasound at the RE. And I also tell her it stopped about 30-45 minutes after I left the RE. So I hop up and she starts to look around.

I immediately ask her "Can you tell me what you see?". She says no not really, the radiologist has to look at it, report to your doctor then they will tell you". Now I'm annoyed but I know it's not her fault.

She looks around for at least 20 minutes. Take all kind of pictures of stuff. She records the blood flow to my ovaries and lets me hear it. I wish she didn't because all I could think was "this is what I should be hearing next week". Finally at the end she shows me the sack and the yolk sack. She says it's still really early, and the blood work is going to be the key if everything is alright. I already knew this, but I hoped she would see SOMETHING. She wishes me the best of luck and says "I will have everything crossed for you". Best thing she could have told me. And I didn't bleed at the ultrasound! Score! So I leave there it's about 11:30 and go back to work.

Fast forward again to 3:00. RE's office calls. She says "Your blood work came back and it looks great, your beta is 1300. It has gone up nicely. The imaging center saw the same thing I saw. So RE wants you to come back again on Thursday for another ultrasound". So I ask her if my beta is normal for where I am, and she says "Yes it is".

So that is it. I get the scare of my life. I don't know what to think. I have no idea what Thursday will bring. So I sit in limbo until then. I am praying that this was just a scare and everything will be fine. I am hoping that we can see the fetal pole and maybe the heartbeat on Thursday. I will be exactly 6 weeks. I will have an update after my appointment on Thursday. We will take any prayers, vibes etc.

Telling the Parents...

So I told my parents on Wednesday the 17th. DH was in California. But, I just had to tell them. I couldn't keep such a huge secret from them. So I got two sets of booties (pink and blue) and two bibs. One said "I Love Grandma" the other "I Love Grandpa". So I got this shopping bag walked into the house and said oh you have to see these really "cute shoes" I bought. So they are both there...Mom grabs the bag....she looks in and jumps back...like there was a mouse in the bag...she takes out the booties and says "Oh my gosh how cute, who gave these to you?" I said "Seriously?" She says "No, really who gave these to you, the RE?" Now I laugh..I look at my dad who is smiling and obviously gets it already. But, he doesn't say anything and lets it sink in for her. I say "Mom look at the thing under the "shoes" ie the bibs...she grabs one and says out loud "I love Grandma". She looks up and says "No! Are you pregnant?" I couldn't even get the word "Yes" out. I just nodded my head she hugged me and we both started bawling. (My parents know all about our struggles).

Then DH came home on Friday morning. We told his parents on Sunday the 21st. We would have told then sooner, but we wanted DH home so we could tell them in person. For them, I got two bibs. One said "If Mommy says no, Ask Grandma". The other said "Rockstar". A bit of a backstory. DH's dad was in a band for a very long time, and he always wanted to be a "Rock Star". So we kid him all the time about how he thought he was going to be in the Rolling Stones. So very funny/appropriate bib.

So I put them both in a bag. DH handed his mom the bag and said "Melissa and I got you guys this gift". She digs in the bag. (She loves presents). She pulls out the "If mommy...bib" Same reaction..."No! Seriously! OMG!" Meanwhile his dad didn't see the bib and says "What is going on?". I start laughing like crazy, and she lets him in on what's going on.

So everyone is very excited. FYI DH and I are BOTH only children. So obviously this announcement was HUGE for our parents.

Beta #3 is in!

So I went for my third beta today. We are at 321! Progesterone was 30. So we have more than doubled in 2 days. They were looking for a 60% increase. So we are looking good so far. Our first ultrasound is schedueled for Monday morning. She already warned me that it will be so early, that they may not see anything yet. Hopefully we do. I am obviously worried sick!

So I will have an update Monday night!

Beta #2 = 143!

It's offical! We are actually pregnant! Our Beta shot up to 143. (Anyone who used a beeper back in the days...143 = I love you!)

I can't believe this. I am still numb to everything. DH was so surprised. His reaction? "Really? Are you sure? Is is definate?" LOL. He's so funny. Yes it's definate! I have to go back on Wednesday for another Beta to be sure my levels are doubling. They want to see a 60% increase every 2 days. Please pray this little bean sticks. I will be updating soon on how I told my parents. We planned on telling both sets this weekend. I just couldn't keep the news. Update soon!

Digital Says...."PREGNANT"!!!!!!!

So I took a digital test. They are supposed to be less sensitive than the FRER I originally took. I had already gone to the bathroom an hour before. But, I said why not? And um hello..."Pregnant" within seconds. I am freaking out right now. I am trying to tell myself this has to be a good sign since I took the test in the middle of the day after only 1 hour of holding it. But seriously, I'm still a nervous wreck. I won't allow myself to be happy until my Beta tomorrow.

I bought this bear for DH over 9 months ago. I saw it on a website, and thought it was such a cute way to tell him. Well obviously it's been put away for months. DH is now in Cali...so if my beta goes well tomorrow, I will be emailing him the picture. Not exactly how I had it planned, but I will take it.

So I will update tomorrow when I get my beta results.

Could it Be...Maybe?

I had sworn I would not test this cycle. I only tested at 10dpiui knowing fully well, I would get a negative. I tested with a friend since it was Grandparents Day. What a great day to tell our parents right? Well, BFN as expected. No biggie. Then I had my beta at 13 dpiui and it was a whopping 13 and I was already spotting. I was crushed and confused. I said to myself, this is more than likely another CP. Which is my opinion, is worse than a straight "It's negative" But I was still "Ok" since I knew we had a plan for our next cycle.

So I went about my business "knowing" AF would be here either Monday 9/15 (the day of my second beta) or soon thereafter. Imagine my shock when late Friday night my spotting just stopped. Then I went all day with no spotting. While mildly hopeful, I remembered that last month the same thing happened, then AF came and beta was negative. So I go about my business just waiting for Monday to get the beta over with and get my IVF calendar. But then yesterday afternoon my bb's started to really hurt. Now let me tell you, they ALWAYS hurt before AF. I am no fool to be bamboozled by "pregnancy symptoms" anymore. But, it was a different feeling. It was familiar actually. It was the same feeling I had last month. It's a different sore, more of heavy feeling. So against my better judgment, smack in the middle of the day I tested. And anyone TTC knows FMU is the holy grail of TTC and testing taking.

Um excuse me??? The line came up in seconds. I was literally still washing my hands when it came up. Seriously? This was a definite line, very dark. Last month it was soooooo light I had to hold it under the light to see it. So now I am totally confused AND excited. Could I have just had a late implanter? Could that spotting, have been implantation? If so, it was more like implantation bleeding! I have no idea. Of course I will be testing again today because now I just can't stop. I will probably take a digital Monday morning before the Beta. If it's + then at least it went up. I am pretty sure digitals detect HCG level of 50+...

Here is the kicker! DH is going to California today. He will be there until Friday. So if this does actually turn around, he won't even be here! This is totally not how I planned it in my mind. But we will definatly take it..

So more waiting. I will have an update for you tomorrow. Sticky and high beta vibes pleeeaasseee!

Beta = 13

I can't believe this is happening..AGAIN! My Beta was 13 today. This totally caught me off guard. I already had spotting, but no symptoms at all this month. I basically thought it didn't work this time. Imagine my surprise when the nurse called and said it was 13 this time. Last month it came back at 12. I already have some light spotting. This is not a good sign. I feel like this is just a repeat of last month. Why does my body keep doing this? Now I'm afraid there there is big problem. Did we have more miscarriages when we were trying in the beginning, and we just didn't know?

I talked to the RE and expressed my concern. He says that there is no explaination why this happened again, that it could turn around, but it is really low. He said that I will repeat my Beta on Monday. If AF shows today or tomorrow I will go in for baseline. I told him I wanted testing done before we move forward with IVF. I want to make sure everything is ruled out before I put my body through IVF, only to have this happen again. So now I just wait and see what happens. If this turns out to be another chemical pregnancy, we will do RPL testing, a slew of blood work, and a uterine biopsy before we move forward. I am hoping this turns around, but I know this will probaly not end well.

Moving to IVF

Seriously? OMG I am still wrapping my head around the idea. I had my consult with the RE. We talked for about an hour. He totally listened to what I had to say and how I felt. We talked about everything thus far, how I felt, how he felt. It was such a great dialogue. Basically if this IUI didn't work, we are moving to IVF. We are skipping Injectables completely for the following reasons:

1. Selective reduction is NOT an option for us. With injectables we are looking at 4-5 follies. He thinks we would be at risk for high order multiples. And, since we won't consider SR, this is not a good option for us.

2. I may have a blocked tube. MY HSG was done by my OB, and well he doesn't know if it was done very well. They "thought" they saw spillage on my right side but weren't sure. So we could have a blocked tube which could be linked to #4

3. DH's samples don't wash well. We keep losing more than 1/3 of the sample. They should really be higher to be successful. Highest we ever had was 11 million.

4. I had an apendectomy that may have something to with our IF.

With IVF we work around all these problems. I am still wrapping my head around all of this. But, I really do think this is right for us. IUI w/Injectables may very well put us in a postion to make a decision we are against or not comfortable with. With IVF we can't have more than twins. RE won't transfer more than 2 embryos. I talked to him about my only "problem" with IVF. What do we do with unused embryos? He said we probably won't have many or any to freeze. He will do a day 5 transfer. This way we have the best embryos to transfer, and probably will only have a few, if any to freeze. I was comfortable with this.

So that is it. I obviously hope AF doesn't show and IUI #3 worked. But if it didn't, I will be starting BCP when AF shows. We are looking at IVF in either October or November.

WOW! Just WOW!

Progesterone Checked Today

Had my progesterone checked today. It came back 24.7

This is lower than it normally has been. But, this is still a good number. This means nothing in regards to the IUI working or not. Just more waiting. Beta is next Wednesday 9/10.

But, we do have a consult with the RE tomorrow. I am really excited. We are going to talk next steps if this IUI didn't work. His initial plan was 3 injectable cycles after the Clomid. I wonder if he think this protocol is still for us. I am just excited that we can get some questions answered and we can pick his brain. I will update after our consult.

IUI #3 Done

IUI #3 is done. I am kind of blah about it this time. Our total Motile count was only 2.4 this time. I know it only takes one, but it got me a little down. I don't understand why our numbers keep going down. We scheduled a consult with the RE before our Beta on 9/10 to discuss next steps if this IUI doesn't work. Initally he wanted 3 Clomid IUI's, then 3 Injectable IUI's. I just want to meet with him, pick his brain and be sure he still thinks this is the protocol for us.

I went for acupuncture today, and am going back tomorrow. I love it. It helps so much with the stress.

So for now, I wait. Progesterone check is 9/3, then beta on 9/10

Hopefully this will be it for us.

Last Follicle Check

I had my last ultrasound today. She says I have "two beautiful follies". I have a 19mm on each side, and a 16mm on the right. I am really excited. We also had 2 last month. I really hope this one turns out better. I was triggered in the office. IUI #3 is at 8:45 a.m.

IUI #3 is Thursday!

I went in for my ultrasound and blood work today. Stats were as follows:

Left:
17mm

Right:
17mm
15mm

Estrogen: 569
LH: 5.3
Lining: 8.7

I have one more ultrasound tomorrow and my RE will be triggering me in the office. IUI will be Thursday morning. I hope this is it for us!

CD 14 - Not Quite Ready

I had my 1st ultrasound and blood work this morning. We have 3 follies this month! Whoa! Seems like I respond better to Clomid with every cycle that passes. IUI #1 we only had one follicle, IUI #2 we had 2, and looks like we will have 3 for IUI #3. I hope this is it for us!

So I have a 16mm follicle on each side. And, I have one that is 14mm on the right. So not quite ready yet. Blood work stats are as follows:

Estrogen: 342
LH: 5.4
Lining 8.0

I have to go back tomorrow for another ultrasound and more blood work. I am hoping IUI #3 will be Friday so we can have the nice log weekend to relax. I will have an update tomorrow.

Green Light for IUI #3

So I went in for my CD3 baseline ultrasound and bloodwork on the 14th. Yet another cycle without cysts! Thank you body for doing SOMETHING right! So we got the green light for IUI #3. I will be starting my last round of Clomid tonight. BW levels were as follows:

FSH: 5.0
Estrogen: < 32
Progesterone: 0.8
Prolactin: 9.8
Thyroid Stimulating Hormone: 0.96
Lining: 5.0

Beta #2 = Negative

So we went from being "Pregnant" on Thursday to not being pregnant on Monday. What a roller coaster. I am still so unsure how to process everything. We are obviously really sad that after 14 months of trying we end up with a chemical pregnancy. It's the most confusing thing. You are mourning a loss that seems like it was never there. We knew from the beginning that this would probably not end well. But we had hope that it might just turn around. But it was so early that we never heard a heartbeat or saw anything. Just a positive HPT. And now it's over as soon as it started. Now we have to wait for AF for more baseline testing to see if we can start again next cycle. We are hopeful that it can work again for us and turn out better this time around. 

Beta was + but VERY Low

So I had my beta today. I totally did not want to go. I was already spotting and "knew" AF would be here soon. So I went in got my blood drawn and snickered "what a waste of time". As the day passed I had this nagging feeling that my beta would come back positive and be a chemical pregnancy. Call it woman's intuition. But I just knew. As I thought my beta was positive. But, very low. Only 12. Should be 25+. Progesterone was 13.5.  RE said it's still early and can go up. And that spotting is normal in the 1st trimester. I was numb. I'm pregnant, but will probably miscarry. I am trying to remain positive but I am trying to be realistic. Please keep us in your prayers. Our next Beta is Monday morning.

Progesterone - 6DPO

Ok Progesterone tested today and it was 36.9. So I "O'd". Unfortunately this great number has nothing to do with whether or not we will get our BFP. Just more waiting.

IUI #2 Done!

So #2 is done. Let the 2ww begin!

I am feeling very optimistic about this cycle. I can't explain why. But I feel so much different than last time. Maybe it's because I wasn't anxious because I knew what to expect. Maybe the acupuncture is really helping? I don't know. I am just really positive and feeling very optimistic. I hope this is it for us!

Last Follie Check

I had my last follie check today. No BW. Stats are as follows:

Left Follicle: 20mm

Right Follicle: 22mm

Lining 9.0

RE triggered me in the office and IUI is tomorrow at 9:15.

2nd Follie Check

I went in for my 2nd follie check this morning. (cd14) Here are my stats:

Left follicle: 17mm

Right follicle: 18mm

Lining: 7.2

Estrogen: 649

LH: 7.5

I have to go back again tomorrow for my last follice check. I will be triggering in the office. IUI #2 is scheduled for Friday 7/25 9:15a.m.

I will be going to acupuncture Thursday night to prepare for the IUI. Fingers crossed this is the one!

Half Baked

CD12 and I went in for an ultrasound and blood work. Seems I am only half-baked. Stats are as follows:

Right Follicle: 15mm

Left Follicle: 16mm

Estrogen: 426

LH: 3.2

Progesterone: 0.7

So I have to go back on Wednesday to see how I have progressed. Hopefully IUI#2 will be this Friday. 

Gulp!

And down it goes...CD3 and 100 mg Clomid down the hatch! Here's to hoping for no Clomid Crazies!

Starting Clomid Tomorrow

I had my baseline ultrasound and blood work this morning. No cysts...lining looks good, all systems are a go! I am starting Clomid tomorrow. (CD3-7) this month. Last month we did CD5-9. So hopefully the new protocol will work better than it did last month! And hopefully I respond well again. Last Clomid cycle I had no side effects. I would like the same please!

I have a new renewed faith this month. It's amazing what one break cycle can do for you! It was wonderful for my psyche to just not think about it. We are ready for this cycle.

Acupuncture is going great. We are both going and loving it. If anything it is totally relaxing me. When I leave there I feel like I just took a 2 hour nap!

Talk soon.

Common Thread Bracelet

I made my Common Thread Bracelet today. I must say, I am quite happy with the way it turned out. I looked all over for a turtle bead this afternoon. Poor DH went to 3 craft stores with me to find one. Not one in any of the stores! So I got this pretty heart toggle. I am planning on wearing it until we get our BFP and maybe afterwards. I am just wondering how I am going to deal with questions about it at work tomorrow...how does everyone else deal with it? Do you tell them what it means? Do you just say a friend gave it to you? I haven't figured out that part yet.

Here is the history on "A Common Thread"

http://stirrup-queens.blogspot.com/2006/09/history-of-infertilitys-common-thread.html

Acupuncture

I started acupuncture today. I was so anxious and nervous. But, she is super nice and totally put me at ease. It was not painful at all. I hardly felt most of the needles going in.

She says I have a "slippery and choppy" pulse and that we need to strengthen my kidneys...um ok!? So I am going to see her once a week. If anything I felt totally relaxed when I left there. At some point I totally zonked out and took a "needle nap". So every week. Hopefully the stats of IUI + Acupuncture work in our favor this month!

2 More Weeks...

So DH is OOT this week...(hence our break cycle). I really just want to get this cycle over with to start up with the RE again. We are going with the same protocol this month. (100MG Clomid, Trigger, IUI#2). Only thing I am doing differently is I am starting acupuncture. RE is really excited that I am going to start it. After reading up on it, the success rates after using it in conjunction with treatment, I had to at least try. You have to love insurance companies....IUI and IVF is 100% covered..but they exclude acupuncture? Explain that one to me???? But, we seriously can't complain...I start Thursday...can't wait to start and see what all the rave it about.

New Haircut = New Me

So I have decided that I am going to "get a life" and not let IF consume me (as much). I need a new me, the old me. The me before IF took over my life. So I started with a haircut. Haircuts always make me feel like I have a new start. So here is the new do in all it's glory...I have also decided that I am going to take all this IF in stride. After a suggestion from a fellow Nestie, whom I consider a good friend...I am going to do something every month. Every month that AF shows, and I'm not pregnant, I am going to do something that I couldn't/shouldn't do if pregnant. So this month....I am whitening my teeth!

Post #1

So after reading tons of IF blogs, decided it was time to start my own. I realize I need a place to express my feelings to anyone who will listen. A place where I can say how I feel without making people uncomfortable, making them feel guilty, or even sorry for me. I need a place to just be me and be able to say how I feel. So this is it. A Baby Sold Separately...this is my offical place to be me and a place to come to terms with my struggles, dissapointments and anything else that comes my way.